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Sunday, 25 August 2013

Just Another Love Story

She seemed so strikingly same,so beautiful yet something very much defying in her expression, everything that used to pull me towards her like a magnet looking for the North Pole . Just a simple glimpse of her seemed to have the same effect on me, still now,10 years henceforth. She stood there at the bus stop and I was on the driver’s seat of my car, waiting for the signal, on my way to office. But what surprised me was what she was doing here in Mumbai? As far as my sources confirmed, she was happily married to an NRI from Texas. The traffic signal changed to green and I had to gear up, but all the same I managed to give her a last glance as I left. Just that very moment she looked at my direction but didn't seem to recognize me. It was like some old feeling.I tried hard to take my mind off her and concentrate on the radio instead. I reached my office within my 10 minutes and straightaway went to my cabin and asked Simran, my PA not to take calls for now. Pakhi’s thoughts seemed to preoccupy my mind. I was finding it quite difficult to concentrate. A rush of memories flooded my mind.
It all started at Akash’s Parents’ 25th anniversary celebrations. Pakhi was his 2nd cousin and I was his best friend. So I didn't take me much time to strike a conversation with the most beautiful girl for the evening. It made me smile every time I remembered that evening when we first met. I was staring at her openly, unabashed. She seemed so beautiful but her eyes spoke a different language,a defying attitude. Akash being a lovely friend understood my feelings and introduced me to her. Soon we were having a conversation but I don’t even remember what we talked about because I was already drowning into her large pool of big black eyes. Before I left, we exchanged phone numbers. Something in me said that she seemed to develop a certain liking for me. I called her a few days after the party(though I wanted to call her the very next day but the better side of my understanding restricted me).Soon we started to talk more often and planned to meet up sometime someday. I couldn't wait more for that “someday”. We never realized when we fell for each other but acceptances of the fact came from both the sides very soon. Our sail on the ocean of love took off.  Those days seemed to be the best time of my life. Her presence seemed to completely transform my life. I was living every moment, cherishing them for a lifetime. Those stolen kisses, those ‘sex’capades, those romantic sensual conversations were the only things on my mind. And like every other mushy couple helplessly in love, even we had our share of future planning, like how our house would look like, how many kids we would have, deciding names for them and every such stupid thing one does when they are young and head over heels in love. Soon after, I got into a b-school. The result was I couldn't give all the time I used to give her but still we managed to keep the magic alive for the first year. But early in my 2nd year the worries of getting placed in a reputed firm became my primary concern. As a result I got busy with my projects and internships. She understood and never complained. Heart in heart I just felt so grateful. I couldn't have asked for a more understanding partner. She had been with me through and through, all the ups and downs for the last two years. Whatever it might be, I never felt alone. Somehow her invisible presence seemed to be shadowed by my side.
But I suppose god had different plans for us. One fine morning I got the shocking news of Pakhi’s father’s death. But the greater shock came from Akash after a few days when he said that Pakhi and her Mother were shifting to their ancestral house in Kolkata and she was to be married off soon to some NRI. I couldn't believe a word of which Akash said. Pakhi had tried convincing her mom about me but her mom was adamant. She wasn't ready to give off her daughter’s hand to someone who doesn’t have a job yet. And since her husband had passed away, it was her responsibility to marry her off to someone who could properly take care of her and not just someone who’s still still struggling. And by Indian norms, she had already attained marriageable age and they couldn’t wait any longer. My perfect world was falling down before my very eyes and I couldn’t do anything to help Pakhi out of this situation. Her cellphone was switched off. I couldn't go to their house, that might land Pakhi in a trouble. And within a week they were gone. My pakhi, my world was gone. I felt orphaned, as if a greater part part of my soul was taken away from me. People say time is the best healer. But I realized something else. It isn’t much of a healing. With time you just get accustomed to the pain. And that was the end to my love story. But it never really had an ending even after it ended…
In order to forget her I got busy with my career. After few months I got into of the reputed MNC’s. Years rolled on and I moved on with my life,never trying to think much about her. And today just a glimpse of her had me thinking of the bygone times. Suddenly my cellphone started vibrating. It was my wife calling,”Honey,you seemed to have forgotten one of your important files at home. Shall I ask Jai Bhaiyya to give it to you on his way to office?”. And I’s suddenly brought back to the present. There stood Seema, at the other end of the phone, my wife. Someone who’s a part of my life and who would be,for years to come. I dreamt of a life with Pakhi, but the reality is so very different. I am not complaining or regretting about anything,but its funny how things turn out to be.
All of us start out as strangers… Strangers who go out to become friends…friends who go out to become strangers once again…familiar becomes unfamiliar…unfamiliarity seems to be the only familiarity in this vicious circle of life….

Love Poems-1

A thousand miles,a hundred days,
A million years I am ready to wait,
To see us together….
To share the joys again..
Though, sometimes it seems so foolish to persist…
As days and miles have sealed our lips…
Ignorance and loneliness for now,have turned friends…
And Despair has turned a passionate lover,hard to resist…
Every night an emptiness grips me,pulling me into its arms,
How much I try,like the fierce lover,it never lets me escape…
Bitter thoughts crushes me from the core,
And my eyes cant seem to hold the weight of these tears anymore…
Yet the thought of giving up is something I fiercely dread,
Love in solitude seems to be a much sweeter pain…
Differences,between us,existed and will always be,
But I hope this doesn't widen the gap,between you and me…
I cant get to you now,
'Cause times are hard and to this place,I am bound …
I know things doesn't work this way,
And maybe u r in a far worse situation than I do,
But I know our feelings are true,
And all our loneliness would fade away someday,
Like mist in the blue.
Maybe I cannot be what u want,
But I can assure you that I would love you truly,through and through…
There’s none who can ever replace you,
And there wont be a question on your love….
No “yardstick” to judge you…
Problems,come they may,
But I’ll try and avoid them in the best possible way.
I know I am a li’l slow at understanding things,
But I promise I wont let those troubles creep in, of which u insinuated…
Sweetheart I miss you,miss you dearly,
Please be there by my side when I need you,
And hold me in your arms forever,
So that I can whisper all my LOVE to you…

Picture Quotes-1

Found something worth sharing.

The awakening..

In a deep slumber she laid,
Unperturbed by the chaos outside-
Of masses shouting and showcasing protests,
Wholly unaware of the rising tide,
And other uprisings that would finally maim her land...

Trusted she people, of the worst kind,
Who robbed her of the wealth she be-quested,
People, manipulative enough to ruthlessly plunder-
The fertile land bestowed upon her masses..
People, intimidating enough to to kill the masses or disrespect a woman,
who were audacious enough to defy their demands,
or, sometimes even as a part of their bizarre game.

Yet she was completely unaware-
Of the misdeeds of the people of her inner circle,
And how would she know?
When everyone around was so reassuring -
To take care of her kingdom-
Till she was 'mature' enough to rule the place.

And, now her land suffered and was politically crippled,
And dissatisfaction reached such a level-
The masses were out for a protest,
They planned to bring down the palace,
And with her inner people already on a run,
She was the one left completely vulnerable-
To face all the wrath of her people,
For things she never did or heard of,
Punished because of a petty lot..

And now, as the masses set the palace ablaze,
She would be suffering her slow death,
A she slept in her chamber,
Death- her imminent consequence,
And destruction-of her beautiful kingdom,
For the wrong people she blindly trusted....